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WEEK SIX
The Tale of the Tape
Pre-Surgery / Six weeks later
Weight 294 Lbs / 252 Lbs - down 42 Lbs
* BMI 42.2 / 36.2 - down 6 points
* Neck 19 1/2" / 18 1/2" - down 1"
* Chest 49 1/2" / 47 1/2" - down 2"
* Waist 52 1/2" / 47" - down 5 1/2"
* Hips 49 1/2" / 43" - down 6 1/2 "
* Thigh 29" / 25" - down 4 "
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I lost 42 pounds in the first six weeks. That is an average of one pound per day.
I also whittled five-and-a-half inches off my waistline. The smaller sized pants I bought (just a touch snug) were starting to look baggy by the time I had them sized for length. That is not, I repeat, not a complaint by the way. Just an observation.
NOTE: Stock up on clothes at your local thrift shop; you won't be wearing them for long. My email friend Debbie told me this - don't buy good clothes that you really "love" until you have lost the majority of your weight. This varies for everyone, of course, and your doctor and the hospital will give you a good idea of your ideal goal weight.
* I find I have much, much more energy than before. I can honestly say that I haven't had this much energy in years. I get out and walk; In fact I now look forward to walking since it no longer causes pain to my knee. It is easier just to move, walk upstairs and even bend down to pick up the papers on the floor of my messy domicile. I sleep better, deeper I think - the hospital told me that my Sleep Apnea will likely disappear within six months of surgery.
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WEEK EIGHT
My weight today was 246 pounds. The weight loss, formerly a pound a day, is slowly coming down to a more reasonable and steady rate, about three pounds per week. The hospital cautions that you can expect to lose the poundage quickly at first and then it will level off; you will continue to lose slowly but surely as you reach your ideal weight.
Also, you are starting to eat more 'normally now (although your 'normal' has just changed forever) by adding more foods to your daily diet; broths have morphed into chunky soups and lean meats have replaced your cream of wheat.
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Cravings!!!
As mentioned, the good doctor Keith Marshall told me after surgery that I would no longer crave sweets. All true. Those puddings I put in my fridge prior to surgery are all still there, untouched. They just seem to sweet, too thick. And who doesn't like pudding?
The same with coffee - I love my coffee. It's a daily routine. Or it was. I haven't had any, I don't miss it, I don't even think about it.
I don't salivate when I am out for a meal - picking at a small appetizer plate of fruit and veggies - while my friends are digging into a plateful of rare roast beef or bbq ribs or "the best pizza in town". The cravings are just not there anymore.
I don't know why this is so - I just know it works. (I don't believe the medical community has pinpointed the reason for this as yet). Possibly since you are no longer connected to your stomach, the mind doesn't receive those signals saying: "Feed Me! Feed Me!" Or perhaps the mind is helping the body repair itself and refusing to transmit those signals.
All I know is that these cravings disappear overnight. Or if they are not entirely gone, they have been reduced to a level where you can control them. It is such a relief - and quite a strange feeling - when the first bite of a favorite food doesn't trigger something in your brain that screams: "More! More!"
NOTE: My Cyberspace friend Debbie once told me she used to eat an entire bag of chocolates at her desk every day. Now she can nibble on half-a-chocolate per day. That is
half of one chocolate! She has had the taste and she feels just fine with that.
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It is difficult to imagine feeling full with this reduced amount - especially to anyone who has ever been on a diet. On a balanced diet, (i.e. Weight Watchers) you may be allowed 3 oz of meat (protein), a cup of veggies and perhaps a half a baked potato with no butter. That is your allotted meal. But let's face it - you are still hungry! Sometimes ravenously so. Eventually (unless you have superhuman willpower) you will break down and binge - ordering a tonne of Chinese food or a pile of pizzas at midnight.
* After surgery however, you will have your three ounces of meat, cup of veggies and half a baked potato (with butter!) and be completely stuffed. Totally satiated. That will be it. Well, perhaps like Debbie, you can still fit in half-a-chocolate for dessert.
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Some surprising changes
Speaking with various people who have had the surgery, they are all surprised that their cravings for sweets and heavy, fried or fatty foods have been replaced with mental visions of fresh fruit and crisp green salads. As I enter Week Nine, I too find myself drawn to fruits and veggies as opposed to burgers and wings. Your taste buds are the same but your 'tastes' are changing. Again, I do not know if this is a psychological response or a physical reaction - perhaps a combination of both - but your former cravings are either gone or manageable while your food choices tend toward lighter dishes and lots of fruit and veggies. (I had lunch with a friend the other day - he ordered a toasted bagel with salmon and cream cheese. It looked good but I was drawn to the watermelon. Watermelon! How things have changed.....)
Oh, I still can see myself eating a burger (although not for a few months yet) but I have no desire to rush out and get one. Let me repeat: I do not feel that I am missing out on anything.
Did I mention -
It's weird. All these changes are very sudden: literally overnight.
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Problem Foods / "Trial & Error"
In the extensive binder (a.k.a. "Lifestyle Guide") from Henry Ford Macomb, you are warned about certain foods you will have to 'work up to' before you can eat them again. Specifically Pizza and Chinese food. How do you know when you are ready? You don't. As they tell you, it is all 'Trial and Error' at this point.
So I tried some
Chinese food - Cantonese Chow Mein, Veggies & Almonds, Chicken Fried Rice. Not too bad, right? Nothing deep fried. I tried a few chopsticks of the first dish. Hmmmm, no. A visit to the bathroom to 'clear my throat'. Second dish - the same thing. And a further repeat for dish number three. Then a couple of more times just to clear my system. So I threw up about five or six times. (But remember - without the stomach bile and acids, it is just like clearing your throat.) I had a few sips of water, set my food aside and waited for 10 minutes.
Then I concentrated solely on one dish, eating it slowly, making sure all the food was in a pureed state before it headed down my esophagus toward my pouch. That was fine. I could handle it. And the Cantonese Chow Mein tasted just as good as ever - except all I needed was about one-fifth of the dish and I was full. Completely satiated and happy to pack up the leftovers. (
Note: I have never had so many plastic containers of left-over food packed into my fridge. Wow. I actually need to buy more of them.)
I did the same thing the next night with some fresh
Swordfish (again, the lighter fish and seafood is suddenly more appealing than the heavy meats), one small boiled potato and half-cup of veggies. I threw it up. So, I had a few sips of water, let my meal sit for 10 minutes, then once again tackled the Swordfish only. (Take small bites, eats slowly and masticate. Then continue to masticate.) That was fine. It went down well and stayed there. The potato and veggies ended up in a left-over container.
Again, I am not sure if I perhaps ate too quickly, didn't chew well enough or maybe it was the combinations of the food groups. But if you slow down and just stick with one item, you should be fine.
After all, you have lived with your original system for XX years. You've only had your new one for a few months so give your body time to heal and adjust.
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WEEK 10
239 Pounds. This from my Weekly Friday morning Weigh-in. On May 1st, I weighed
294 Pounds. I lost about seven pounds while on my pre-surgery diet, so I have
lost a total of 55 Pounds in Ten Weeks. That is 55 pounds that I am not carrying around with me anymore; 55 pounds that is no longer dragging me down.
Speaking of being "dragged down", I am finding that the more weight I lose, the lighter I feel. Well, of course, you say. But it isn't just the physical feeling of lightness, it is a lighter feeling both mentally and emotionally. I have always known that I am a 'depression' eater - the more depressed I get, worried, anxious, etc. the more I eat. Others do the opposite. But me - I bog myself down with food. Losing weight rapidly as I have been doing seems to have lightened my mood as well as my frame. It's that old familiar phrase: "Healthy Body, Healthy Mind".
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Checkin/Checkup - Monday August 10/09
This was supposed to be my 10-week checkup with Dr Pesta back in Warren, Michigan but I had to cancel at the last minute. My family doctor (Dr Ron Porter) suggested he could do the checkup here and then I could send the results to Dr. Pesta.
I saw Doctor Porter Monday afternoon and we talked about my progress, various changes (I told him that I am still amazed that I don't crave burgers and wings but instead always have a bowl of fruit salad in my fridge. Mmmmmm, watermelons, apples, pineapple, orange melon.....) and he then gave me a quick physical. (My annual physical takes about two days with all the blood tests, x-rays, etc).
My blood pressure is 120 over 73 with a pulse rate of 60. ("That's the reading of a healthy teenager," said the doctor.) Lungs and chest were healthy, no swelling of the ankles (keep an eye on that after surgery), all bodily functions working normally.
I then went downstairs to the Lab for blood work - results to come.
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WEEK 11 - Plateau!
Friday morning weigh-in. Check the scales. 239 Pounds. Re-check. 239 Pounds. Try again - 239 Pounds. Oh no! I haven't lost any weight this week! But I haven't eaten any differently! Nothing changed! Horrors!
Relax. I just reached my first "plateau". Anyone who has ever been on a diet knows that you lose weight steadily at first and then suddenly you plateau for awhile.
You could eat nothing for a week, drink only water, and you still would not lose any weight. Your body is simply adjusting to the sudden changes; it has to re-align itself, to coordinate everything with this rather rapid loss of poundage. After steadily losing weight, it is a shock to see no weekly downward movement in the scale. You panic - "but I've stayed on my diet. I never cheated"! Your body simply needs to level out, to find a new "balance". It may take a week, it may take three, but once your system has self-adjusted, your weight loss will continue.
So I plan to keep walking and have started daily bike riding as well. I am introducing new foods into my diet; I bought some shrimp (seafood and fish are lighter than meats and both good sources of protein) which I steamed and ate slowly, oh so slowly, with my own special seafood sauce. Also I plan to try some thinly-sliced calf liver to add some meat protein. However, I will (alas) pass on the fried onions for now.
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Note: The liver was good. Don't overcook it, leave it pink inside. Cut off small bites and keep chewing until it is pureed. It is a great source of protein.
Chicken also goes down well - but stick to the white meat. The dark meat is heavier and richer; it may not go down so well. It didn't for me and caused another trip to the washroom to 'clear my throat'.
Remember, Trial and Error. Try anything but eat it slowly and thoughtfully. If it isn't working for you, there will suddenly be that 'heavy' feeling in your chest. (Also, you may break out in a light sweat.) Think of this as the food sitting on top of your pouch, unable to sift itself through because the entrance is clogged up - because that is exactly what it is. Just a quick trip to the washroom, get rid of it, take a break, and then start again - slower and chew more.
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WEEK 12
Three months. My weekly weigh-in checked out at
236 - approximately a 58 pound loss in 12 weeks. This time it took two weeks to lose three pounds. That is actually good, slow and steady from now on. As well, I am adding 'heavier' foods to my diet all the time, more solids (i.e. chicken, fish, seafood, etc) instead of just yogurt and porridge. I have become a maniac for fruit though - especially water-based fruit such as melons, canteloupes, watermelons, and so on. (I am also constantly drinking - more like sipping - liquids all the time; water, ice tea, clear juices.)
Last night at Don & Mado's I tried pasta for the first time - one of Mado's excellent dishes mixing pasta, tomatoes, garlic and cheeses. I just had about a quarter of a bowl (instead of an overflowing one), ate slowly, chewed well and along with a few forkfuls of spinach and melon for dessert, I was satiated. Now I know I am good-to-go with pasta dishes.
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Public Image / Self Image
People who I haven't seen for a few weeks, especially months, are astonished at the change in my appearance. "You've lost so much weight"! quickly followed by: "I can see it in your face - it's amazing, you look 10 years younger." (I actually get that a lot. Which is nice, I freely admit.)
Those looking at me see the changes.
I do not.
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Oh, of course I know that I have lost weight. No question about that; my clothes are hanging off me and even the smaller sizes that I have stepped into are too big. But i really don't/can't see it. When I look in the mirror I still 'see' the same person who has looked back at me for so long.
My self-image has always been that of a 'big guy' (As mentioned earlier, I am known by one and all as "Big Mon" when I am in the Carib). I have always been big and heavy with legs that size that a professional football player would envy. Or my "Brontosaurus legs" as my friend Don would say.
One time when I started weight training, the instructor asked "It's tough getting back into it, isn't it?" I replied "No, it's tough starting". His astonished retort was "You mean you just look like that"? Man if I started like you I'd be world champion by now."
Big. I'm big. I've always been big.
But now that is changing and my 'image of self' also has to change. This is where the pre-surgical psychological assessment comes in: Can you handle the change?
That may seem ridiculous. After all I am/you are losing weight, becoming healthier, getting stronger and feeling better. Right? What's not to like? So why hasn't my mind - my inner eye - allowed me to see those changes?
I've been told this is very common phenomenon among people who change their appearance in some manner. It takes a long time to mentally adjust to your new existence from your long perceived self-image.
Because after all these years, if I am no longer "Big Mon" - Who Am I?
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(NOTE to Self)
No more
Chinese Food until I reach the six month mark. I tried some last night; chicken, shrimp and sauteed veggies. It did not stay down. In fact I had to make a number of visits to the washroom to repeatedly 'clear my throat'. It was not pretty. The literature does suggest you avoid
Chinese Food and Pizza for at least six months. (Rice is especially bad for your new pouch). The literature is indeed correct. Back to my fruit salad and watermelon.
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WEEK 13
The scale sat at about 233 Pounds. I always try it three times just to make sure it is accurate. I lost another three pounds this week which bring my total to 61 Pounds.
Three pounds two weeks in a row, plus a plateau week. That is good. It means my body is slowly adjusting to this new regime and allowing me to lose weight at a much more measured pace. My waist is now down to 45 inches from an all-time high of 52 1/2.
(
* Oh yes, and Cyberspace Debbie just broke the 100 Pound mark as she celebrated her one year anniversary. Surgical anniversary that is. Congratulations!)
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WEEK 14
Only a loss of one pound this week. And I could tell the scale wasn't going to budge that much; this time I could feel there wouldn't be much weight loss. No problem. It is still going down - that's the correct direction - and at this stage, slow is good. Gives my body time to adjust to my new weight and lifestyle. But check out the following photo - compare it to the one at the beginning. Same jeans, different body.
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This photo was taken Sunday, September 06/09 at Toronto's Distillery District. The jeans I am holding are the ones I was wearing in the first photo of this journal. I am down at least 60 pounds and slightly more than seven inches off my waistline. And again, it is time for smaller size pants - or suspenders. (
Photo by: George Shewchuk)
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WEEK 15
Another two LBS down at today's Weigh-in which puts me about 230 LBS.
TIP: A great 'snack' is Cheerios. Yup, good old-fashioned breakfast food Cheerios. Just pour in a bowl and eat them dry - no milk or sugar. The beauty of Cheerios is that after a few crunches they disappear in your mouth - just seem to melt. Therefore there seems to be almost nothing that heads down your windpipe. Plus they are healthy and good for you. Try the 'Honey & Nut' version for just a hint of sweetness.
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WEEK 16
Another two LBS as well at this week's Weigh-in. Slow but sure.
People always ask if I am hungry and/or tired. No to both. I have much more energy with every pound I shed. As for hungry, I can honestly say that I have never felt hungry. It's weird (have I used that expression before?) But for the first time in my Life, I am not hungry. In fact sometimes I realize that I haven't even had my minimum for the day (That is not good!) I always try to get three Protein shakes in during the day - add an egg to the milk in the blender, a couple of bananas or some other fruit, perhaps some vanilla yogurt, some flax and you have a very healthy and surprisingly filling meal. Drink it slowly, sipping occasionally, and you will feel very full by the time you are finished the glass. (
Note: I always keep several mugs in the freezer so my drink will be nice and cold).
We have always heard that it takes 10 to 15 minutes for the brain to catch up with the stomach. So even when you are stuffed, you still feel hungry because your brain hasn't told you to stop. When you eat and drink slowly that gives the brain the proper time to coordinate with your stomach - or now your new pouch. You will suddenly feel full from one bite to another. That is when you stop eating and put your leftover food in one of the many new seal-tight plastic containers you now own.
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WEEK 17
Whoa! I've gone in reverse this week. According to my scales, I am actually UP a pound! 229 LBS
What????? Not to panic. Again, this happens - as anyone who has ever been on a diet knows. It's as if 'the fat' seems to know that you are trying to kill it - and it is determined to hang on. It just wants to cling to those bones. It is fighting back.
Plus I was fairly lazy this week and didn't get out walking every day.
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WEEK 18
This week I knew I had lost weight even before I stepped on the scale. My body felt like I had dropped a lot of weight. My clothes suddenly seemed baggy (and this is my smaller size) and I had to cinch my belt up tighter during the week. Actually I've been putting more holes in the belt because know even my belt is too small! Prior to my surgery, I was putting extra holes in my belt but in the opposite direction - I was letting it out.
So my Weigh-in was 224 LBS for a total loss of 70 LBS.
Seventy Pounds have disappeared since my surgery on May 29th.
How much is 70 Pounds? Go to the gym, put 70 pounds of weight on a bar, then lift it up. Hold it out straight in front of you. See how long you can hold it - if you can. And I've been lugging all that unnecessary weight around with me for years.......
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** WEEK 26
Six Months since Surgery
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"This was the best thing I could ever have done for myself" quote the author.
Weight: 214 Pounds (Formerly:
294 LBS. A loss of
80 pounds in Six Months)
Waist: 41 inches (Formerly:
52 1/2 inches. A loss of
11 1/2 inches in Six Months)
I haven't done much writing on this journal because there really haven't been any new discoveries to report. As a journalist, I give the story what it is worth - no padding. If there is nothing new to report, then don't bother.
But the changes have continued. I am now starting to look for my third set of smaller clothes since these ones are falling off me; I've been making new holes on my belt. I've done this before, of course, but now I am making them on the inside of the belt and not toward the tip.
I still do not feel hungry. I will suddenly realize it is 2:30 pm and I haven't eaten anything since my morning
Gatorade and Protein shake. So perhaps I'll munch on a protein bar or make a sandwich - and still not finish it all.
Dinner used to be a major event of the day - a steak, perhaps a roasted chicken, roast beef or roast of pork on the weekends. Now, I heat up a bowl of soup (usually Campbell's Chunky something or other - I love the three bean Pork.) I will likely have half the tin and perhaps some cheese (extra old Cheddar) and crackers, Saltines or Triscuits. (Note: Check out Triscuits these days - they have many interesting flavours).
Although I don't get cravings anymore, I still may 'feel' like eating a certain type of food - Yah, I could eat a hamburger now, or Maybe some Thai food today. Just like normal. Except that when I order the meal, I find that I am satisfied after three or four mouthfuls. I've had the taste and that is enough to satisfy my desire. So I end up taking home my doggie bags.
The same with Take Out or Delivery - I will order a
"2-4-1" Pizza on a Friday evening. For those who don't know, you actually do get two pizzas. Pre-surgery, I would sit in front of the TV and eat one entire pizza - and perhaps a couple of slices of the second. Now it is a major feat (and not recommended) if I eat two slices. This really is fine because I have food in the fridge for the entire weekend - just pop a slice in the microwave anytime I do feel a little peckish. Keep in mind that you better really like whatever you order because you will be eating it for several days to come.
* Also for the past month or so, I have been involved in moving and renovating. I found a new apartment but it required tremendous work and I only had a few weeks to get it cleaned up - just made it in time thanks to the help of Norman and Rodney. But during that time my routine was thrown off and I actually started drinking coffee again - regular at first and then I switched to decaf - and eating
muffins and doughnuts in the morning and
Subway sandwiches for lunch (which are actually pretty healthy) while I was working on the house. I was tired and exhausted and not really thinking about my food intake.
However now that I am (sort of) settled in, I am sitting here, writing this with my
Gatorade at hand and my
Protein shakes in the fridge, just ready for lunchtime.
Note: I have been steadily losing weight but at a much slowly and safer rate. During these renovations when I was active every day (the physical work, while exhausting, was actually good to get me moving) I didn't lose that much weight but I found that I 're-distributed' it. My waist actually became a distinct waist, my legs became more muscular as did my arms. People have commented that I have suddenly lost weight just because my shape has changed with my body taking on different proportions.
More changes: I have grown back my beard for the winter (it is now an annual event) and more people have commented that it looks good. It is the same beard as always but I think people are noticing because my face has changed shape; it is not more long and lean and opposed to Santa Claus chubby and the beard now highlights my face instead of making me look 'puffed out'.
* I also discovered there is a gym only three blocks from my new place and they are having a special introductory offering; sign up for a year @ $59 per month and get the first three months for a total of $39. Plus all the classes - yoga, pilates, spinning - are included. I think I should join. Being active during this renovation has made me realize that it is now time to help maintain and assist my weight loss with some formal exercise.
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WEEK 28
(Six months plus two weeks)
All that hard labour during the recent renos - moving, twisting, turning, lifting, etc - paid off.
Weight 210 LBS (down from: 294)
BMI: 29.7 (down from: 42.4)
Measurements (Today and pre-op)
Neck 17" (19 1/2")
Chest 44" (49 1/2")
Waist 41" (52 1/2")
Hips 41" (49 1/2")
Thigh 23 1/2" (29")
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I cannot remember the last time I weighed 210 pounds - at least 20 years. The difference in how I feel physically is amazing. I get up and move faster, (actually, I get up and move!) walk faster, no longer get winded walking up stairs or even tying my shoe. But for me the major change is that I am no longer craving food. I still like the taste of food, of course, but as I have mentioned, just a little is fine. I got the taste of it and I was satisfied with that.
I never thought I would ever see 210 pounds again. I really do feel like a different person. Which makes sense because, having lost 84 pounds, I have almost lost a person. Yikes! Where did they go?
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WEEK 31
Friday January 1, 2010
Weight 210 Pounds
A New Year and a new weight to greet 2010.
In the past three weeks I have stabilized and maintained this weight. That is great. I expect that I may lose more weight in the next month or so but 210 is actually a good weight for me.
My sister was in town last week, organizing my apartment, and decided that I needed some personal organization so she took me to
Value Village (the weight loser's best friend) and pick out some 'new' clothes for me; jeans, dress pants and two shirts. The jeans were size 38. Thirty eight. (Priot to surgery, my pants were a very tight size 46 and should have been 48 but I refused to buy that larger size so I sucked in my breath and put up with the 'too tight' feeling). I haven't been able to squeeze into that size for approx 25 years. They fit perfectly. I realized after wearing them for a few days that these are likely the first pair of pant that have actually fit me in years. Really. For the waist size to fit, the rest of the pants have to be baggy. (the crotch hangs down to my knees like some wannabe rapper. OK, that is a bit of an exaggeration but you get the picture.) But now size 38 fits me from the waist down and look good.
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One reason I am pleased I maintained my weight is that I was home for five days at Christmas. Anyone who has ever been on a diet or weight loss program realizes that
'holidays at home' can be a dangerous dining time: Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter etc are all
triggers for 'pigging out' over the two or three days. These times are ingrained in us - this is the time when it is acceptable, indeed encouraged, to go back for third helpings. Also you must eat all the hors d'ouevres, snacks, double helpings of dessert and raid the fridge at midnight. It's tradition. Besides, you cannot resist my sister's Xmas Eve Tourtierre or Xmas Day Turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy, apple and raison pies (a la mode, of course) etc etc. I was no exception and tried to stop before I did irreparable damage to my pouch.
Sine then I've gotten back to my protein shakes, Campbell Chunky soups and Gatorade. The fact I stayed steady at 210 is terrific.
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Food Hints: Chocolate and
Liqourice. These two items are very important and you should have some handy at all times. Every now and then you will eat too much, too quickly or perhaps discover that a certain food is too heavy or fatty for you. You will start to feel heavy or queasy - this may last for 20 minutes or so (at least it does for me). When you start to feel this way, eat a chunk or two of a chocolate bar or a few bites of liqourice. The feeling will disappear. I have no idea how this works biologically but it does. I discovered this during one of these queasy sessions when I suddenly felt like having a little chocolate. It worked. And then I found that liqourice had the same effect. Again, weird, but effective. Just a little, mind you. No pigging out.
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WEEK 44
Friday, April 2, 2010
(Good Friday)
Weight: 210
Neck: 17"
Chest 44"
Waist 40 1/4 "
Hips 40 1/2 "
Thigh 23 1/4 "
Obviously I have not written much for the past few months. As a journalist, I was always taught to "give the story what it is worth". so if there is nothing to report, report nothing. Wait until there is some news or changes.
Everything has been basically 'status quo' for the past three months. My weight has remained at 210 - some weeks it will read 212, others 208 - but always returns to 210.
* In January, I did appear on the
CBC morning radio show
"As It Happens" with Andy Barrie. The report finally came out about Canada's obesity problem reaching epidemic proportions. One of the researchers, Jason Osler, 'found' this blog, called me, and asked me to be on the show. Actually he interviewed me for almost 45 minutes. Good interviewer! He knew what he was looking for, what he wanted; I felt like I was back on the psychiatrist's couch.
Anyhow I took the early morning streetcar to the CBC building and appeared at 6:45 AM for about 10 minutes talking about my lifelong problems gaining and losing weight. Andy Barrie interviewed both myself and
Health Guru Hal Johnson of the
"Body Break" TV commercials. Hal was on via telephone and we had a good discussion. I remember saying the word "diet" should be banned from our vocabulary and the dictionary. Hal agreed. It is a
"lifestyle change".
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The Gym: Just this week I finally (finally!)
joined the gym. I have been noticing in the mirror that I look flabby. I am so used to being more bulky and fleshed out that I actually think - at 210 pounds - that I look gaunt. (As if...). So I walked by
"Fitness System" (in Toronto at Queen & Eastern Avenue) and they were having a special - sign up for a year, get the first two months free (well....they did have this one-time signing fee that pretty much took care of those two months) but then monthly fees of only $60 won't start until June. Plus all your classes - yoga, pilates, etc - are included in that fee. Big, clean three-storey building right on the corner.
As a bonus for me, they are only a few blocks away and I can actually see them from my corner. so I have no excuse not to go. Have been several times so far - even had a physical assessment - and have been re-learning the machines and equipment. Feels good to get some exercise; as a mesomorph body type, I have always realized that my body craves exercise.
Clothes: Clothes have become more important, actually more fun. For the first time in years, clothes actually fit me and - dare I say? - actually look good on me. They don't billow out: pants fit: shirts go straight down my stomach and don't balloon over my belt. So I have been having fun going to
Value Village and spending some time looking for great deals. I have gotten some great-looking shirts ($5.99 each); a good (expensive!) new sports coat for $12.99; some very cool vests at $6.99 each (I am so glad to see that vests are coming back. I knew it every since "The Mentalist" appeared on TV last year; As soon as I saw Patrick Jane, played by Simon Baker, wearing vests, I knew they were making a return. Indeed, this year the lawyers on "Law & Order" are wearing three-piece, pin-striped suits. Hooray. I have always loved vests) and I've gone crazy buying real bright and gaudy Hawaiian shirts ($5.99), some short sleeves and a few truly wild and wonderful long-sleeved ones.
As I say, clothes are suddenly fun again. So I am having fun with them.
Food: At this point I can pretty much eat anything - although there are still things that I choose not to. I
still do not have cravings for the fries, and burgers and wings. I still order salad and fruit - because I really do want salad and fruit. Oh, I will have a burger every now and then - but I take off the top bun (bread really does stuff up your pouch too quickly) and then only eat half of it. Same with the fries - I cannot finish a regular serving. I have three or four forkfuls and that is it. I've had the taste of it and feel full. It is so liberating not to be in the grip of Food.
I can eat pasta - but not spaghetti. That too also stuffs up the pouch. If I chop it up first, then chew it dozens of times, it is fine. But aren't you supposed to slurp down spaghetti? It just seems wrong to cut it up with your knife and fork before you eat it.
Ice tea is number one - I can easily go through two or three Arizona ice teas every day.
Coffee: I confess - I have started to drink coffee again. Six weeks ago, a new coffee shop opened up on the corner of my street, Queen & Ashdale. It's about 100 yards from my house. Sean and Julie are the owner/operators of
Voulez-vous and I have taken to starting my day in one of their wingback chairs, reading the paper and drinking a coffee. However Julie also introduced me to their "tea lattes" - various types of tea with the steamed milk. And I even tried soya! Which I quite like (surprise, surprise). So while I will have a coffee or cappucinno every now and then, the Tea Lattes made with soya are quite good and (I can tell) much better for my new plumbing. (The coffee will occasionally produce gas whereas the teas do not have the same reaction - so I am much safer in public if I stick with the tea.)
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WEEK 52 - One Year anniversary
Friday May 28, 2010
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Weight:
210 pounds (
296 lbs.)
BMI:
29.5 (
42.4)
Blood pressure
122/72
Heart rate:
60 per minute
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* Neck
17 " (
19 1/2")
* Chest
44" (
49 1/2")
* Waist
41" (
52 1/2")
* Hips
40 1/2" (
49 1/2")
* Thigh
23 1/2" (29")
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